independent

so tonight at dinner, there was a large group of us sitting in a huge booth... at a buffet restaurant. seriously... the worst idea ever!! so somebody was like.. well... maybe we just need to have the guys go get the food for their girl... so the girls AND the guys don't have to be getting out to go get food. my first reaction was "ummm i dont have a guy. i'm an individual person" and i laughed. and i laughed. to me, somehow, it was a major sign of acceptance. I have accepted the fact that i am single, and that is a wonderful thing. Every time i hear about a girl younger than me getting engaged, i instantly think.. poor girl, she'll be missing out on so many life experiences! then i think about everything i've done that i never would've done if i was married. and then i think about everything i still need to do while i have this freedom. these lists are seriously insanely long! and i LOVE it. okay okay, so eventually i get kinda depressed that there is ANOTHER girl younger than me getting married.... and i'm still not married. but i think the life experiences out weighs the married thing. because i'll be able to experience the same thing they are, eventually. but will they ever be able to experience this? NOPE! i'm pretty sure i win in this situation!! haha.

and to my reinstated pain that all my ex's are married or engaged.... i say... that just means there's someone 30948029384 BETTER out there for ME!

i'm not gonna let this whole 'not married' thing get me down. if i were married, i wouldn't have the 3 amazing roommates that i do! i wouldn't be able to make whatever i want for dinner every night. i might not have driven across the country in a big yellow truck with my daddy! i may not have visited my fabulous sister and her family in portland. I wouldn't be able to do whatever i want every week. aka... my life would not be MY OWN anymore. it would be mine AND someone elses.

this thing called life is a wonderful thing. dont let anybody get you down, they're not worth it. just realize how wonderful you as an indivdual are. you dont need ANYBODY to make you who you are. be whatever the heck you wanna be and don't take no for an answer!