meh lame.

MIGRAINE.

i dislike spending the entire evening at home. in bed. because i have a migraine.
i dislike that i have lost my phone somewhere in the mass chaos of the comforter and 3 quilts on my bed.
i dislike that Mia keeps coming up to my room and laying on my bed for a minute and then running downstairs. what a tease. it makes me feel even MORE alone. i miss buddy.
i dislike that i can't decide if it was a good day or a bad day. i think it should be a good day, but since i got so little sleep... everything feels like a bad day.
i dislike that i don't have anyone to text when i'm bored or lonely. i miss that. a lot.
i dislike the pounding and pain in my forehead right now.

i do love that we have heat in my house.
i do love that nikka spent the night last night. and we stayed up way too late talking about how awesome we are. and it felt so good to be me again.
i do love knowing in two weeks i'll be with my FAMILY.
i do love my awesome brothers.
i do love that i got to see New Years Eve with ellie today.
i do love somewhat knowing what i want in life, and not putting up with crap i don't deserve.


it seems kinda ironic that i'm in this much pain because of my migraine but i'm still sitting here looking at the computer. well. i'm suffering through. because otherwise i will be BORED out of my MIND. alone. in my room. with nothing to do.

sometimes. i start to feel pathetic.

but then i realize. i'm way too freaking AWESOME to be pathetic. i just have pathetic moments. and this isn't one of them. i'm choosing to be alone because my head hurts. the end.

goodnight. hope you feel better.